i'm stressed.
i'm troubled.
i cant do anything properly!!
thx to bloody alex and his stupid threats,
which i nvr heard of any teacher threatening students be4,
i got bloody streesed out.
i keep worrying whether he will be satisfied when i play.
i keep worrying whether he will do this he will do tt.
wtf luh. he is making me all stressed out.
i'm becoming an EMO teen.
when i cant do anything right, i feel like crying.
THX TO TT STUPID _ WHO KEEP GIVING ME ALL TT STUPID STRESS.
then it's lyk every little thing tt i cant do well i going cry liddat.
__

wed.
first was open space.
nthg to do de ;D
so we slacked.
then eng then hist then art.
art was stupid luh.
i become the bad person liao luh.
maths was ok.
enrichment was great.
we watch the movie on cultural pot ;D
after tt was CO.
it totally sucks.
madeline changed me to GAOHU.
zz. i dun wan.
if it is pri sch under zheng lao shi i will go.
BUT UNDER ZHANGBIN I DUN WAN LUH.
u imagine luh.
sitting in the frt row,
right in the view of zhangbin,
where he could pick out all ur bloody mistakes and pick on you.
zzz . __
then i got damn pissed.
then madeline giv out the relay i had to call none other PERSON, which is ANDRE.
_!
last year relay also i call him.
now i still gotta call him.
zzz.
i was giving madeline tt sucking ATTITUDE luh.
sry la.
then i got a bloody headache.
then zhangbin was picking on me.
AS USUAL.
AND TO ADD ON THE ALL TT BLOODY SHYT THINGS,
CO FROM NEXT WEEK ONWARDS CHANGE TO TUESDAY.
GREAT.
I DUN WAN TUESDAY.
I WAN WEDNESDAY.
I RATHER GO HOME LATE EVERYDAE THAN GO HOME SO EARLY ON WED.
WED SO NOW NO CO.
BULLSHYT.
CHANGE TO TUESDAY.
UNTIL 6.
BULLSHYT.
I RATHER IT WAS WED UNTIL 5.
CRAP.
CRAP.
CRAP.
CRAP.
CRAP.
i really felt lyk crying then.

thurs.
PE WAS BADMINTON ;D
fun luhssss.
then maths
hcl - sleep.
next week gonna present the du shu hui luh.
sian la.
lit was ok.
ass was ok.
physics was ok.
then wan go home i need yy's newspaper article book.
THEN CANNOT FIND.
zzz.
then i was damn frantic luh.
cuz i got alot missing and some no questions and i wan go home early.
TO CHIONG TT BLOODY __'S PIANO HW.
then i can photocopy at home and do at home etc etc.
then i was going to explode liao luh.
then adelyn sae something,
and i really exploded.
i duno why, i jus exploded and start yelling.
seriously i'm getting emo.
i cant believe i hav to cope wif all this bloody __ tt is going on in my __ life.
i could jus die.



thx to YOU.
I COULD NOT GET ANYTHING DONE.
I GET STRESSED LYK A FREAK.
I KEEP LOSING MY TEMPER OVER LITTLE THINGS.
I KEEP WORRYING WHETHER U WILL BE SATISFIED.
I KEEP WORRYING WHETHER U WILL SCOLD ME.
I KEEP WORRYING WHETHER U WILL THREATEN TO NOT TEACH ME.
I KEEP WORRYING WHETHER U WILL DEMORALISE ME.
I KEPP PRACTICING SO TT U WUN BE DISAPPOINTED.
I KEEP WORRYING WHETHER I'LL FINISH TT 7 PAGES OF HW.
i keep worrying about all this, for wad?
tell me for wad?
i cant seem to satisfy you with whatever i do.
no matter how good i play u always had something to say which is like to me, a slap across my face.
i played well, and feel happy, and u simply crushed it with jus a few words.
words tt demoralises ppl.
i show you black face when i feel really really pissed,
and u showed me yours.
i'm not devoted to piano like you.
not everybody is devoted to piano like some of your students.
i am not them.
and i'm not an immortal either.
now, you jus throw 7 pages of hw at me and expect me to learn 3 songs perfectly by 1 week, it is totally impossible.
i can barely perfect the 1st song 1st movement, much less the 2nd movement and 2nd song, and although 3rd song i'm able to play, it's not perfect.
i make mistakes when playing, and u start making stupid noises lyk the:
-whatthehellwhyyousolousy- sigh.
-whyareyousostupid- sigh.
-whattheheckisthis- snort.
-lookingdownonme- snort.
seriously, if you are going to giv me any of those tmr, i think i will break down and really cry in front of you.
i'm trying to be strong, to cope wif all those bloody things u made me do and cope wif sch work at the same time.
but the prob is i cant.
i cant cope with this life of mine.
i cant cope with the way u teach.
i cant stand your attitude.
you are always so impatient,
the moment i play wrong u start commenting.
after commenting i feel flustered and make more mistakes.
i make more mistakes u get angry.
you get angry and start threatening me and showing me the black face,
then i show you mine.
what's the purpose of playing the piano when i'm all stressed out like this.
what's the purpose of being a piano teacher when YOU yourself hav totally no patience at all.
you can jolly well be a performer wif your other 4 frens,
but you are not even FIT to be a piano teacher.
without patience, no matter how good you are, u'll jus be a piece of shyt in my eyes.
when ur fren call you you start talking abt ME how bad i'm playing how i am pissing you off WHEN I'M RIGHT BESIDE YOU.
i tolerated tt, seriously i tolerated tt.
but i really hate your attitude.
i swear that if you are giving me the black face when u step into my house, you will leave my house immediately and never ever step back in.
i mean it.
i'm really stressed out already.
i'm giving everyone tt sucky attitude,
i'm getting sudden spliting headaches everyday,
i'm losing my temper everyday,
i'm crying everyday.
cuz of what?
cuz of YOU