i'm moody today -.-
thx to ______ & ______ especially.
thr's alot more, but those 2 are the main ones.
morn was sian though. it was drizzling alr when they dismiss us frm paradesquare. heckk lol.
bio was okay. i didnt fall asleep :D eng was uber sian, we were listening to examples of good/bad orals. halfway through i look ard the classroom. half the heads are down, so my head went down tooo. slept till pe ;x
pe was okay, serving test today. and i was worried i couldnt hit it to the other side -.- but it was okay! only 1 was hit not straigh x.x happpy happy :DD
cep was darn, thinking of activities for our cip during hols at hospice. was thinking of icebreakers, but mr kieu came over and say dont put games for icebreaker and my grp goes *stun* no games means performance, and performance means torture -.-
phy spa was okay, i hope i got my refractive index correct :O i think i did pretty well, heh ;D
maths was okay too. 3D is nice, not very boring la lol.
co was the one who turned my whole day damn sucky. there were tons of ppl who didnt come today, and i get all the blame, THANKS ALOT. and they giv me all tt freaking bastard reasons.
yunmin : sick . =.= ( ya right la )
chiyang: SICK , BUT I BLARDY HELL DUN BELIEVE. YEST STILL CAN YELL AT ME HOW CAN BE SICK SIA. SIBEI GUAILAN.
xinpei: cramps ?! -.-
doris: tuition -____-
chunyun & chunmei: pon as usual. fk.
others who didnt come i excused them, and those ppl i'm not angry at. but wad made me most pissed is tt gracekwan pangseh me.
i got scolded by zhangbin, i solo gaohu and it sounds god damn horrible, zhangbin picking on every single little detail on how i play, and zhangbin was yelling alot today, and most of it is directed to me, cuz i'm the SL AND THERE IS NO OTHER LEADER THR. i almost cried in the midst of all tt yelling. THANKS ALOT, grace.
i hate you for this you noe. although it's your birthday today, it doesnt give you the damn FUCKING reason to pon co tdy. and i specifically went to find you and told you tt alot of ppl pon today and not to pangseh me, and when u went off for something, fine i let u go, and you pangseh me and went home?! mayb i'm the stupid one here, trusting that YOU wont pangseh me, but YOU dont giv a shit about me, letting me save myself with your I-DONT-GIVE-A-FUCKING-DAMN-ATTITUDE. you go, you didnt tell me, and i called lyk so many times on ur hp and it's fucking hell off, which i knew you did purposely so tt i cant call you and you wont have to hear me screaming my head off. you left me there to fend for myself, left me there to bear all the responsibilty, all the duties, all of chiyang/yunmin's duties, and i'm supposed to do it without a single complaint is it? SO YOU HAPPY LAH, HAPPILY GO HOME AND LEAVE ME ALONE THERE WITH NOBODY PLAYING THE GAOHU, WHEN YOU KNEW TT CHUNYUN AND CHIYANG WONT BE COMING TODAY. SO I GET YELLED AT, SCOLDED AT, CRITICISED AT, ALL BY MYSELF, ANSWER ZHANGBIN ABT THE STUPID ATTENDANCE TODAY BY MYSELF. and you're happily going home jus because it's your 15th birthday today. SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, GO HAPPY LAH. I DONT GIV A FUCK ABOUT YOU ANYMORE, and neither will i trust you ever again.
no offence really. mayb it seems lyk no big deal, and you cant hate me for telling her off lyk this, but really, i dun care anymore. hate me, dislike me, i dont care. go be with her then.
and neither will i ever trust yunmin and chiyang anymore.
all you ppl, nt only ym and cy, are the ones who made me see tt i'm so down right stupid, misplacing my trust in all of you. i thought i could trust you guys to keep erhu section lively, to be the best juniors i can ever have, but mayb i was wrong. so i'll jus admit i'm so damn stupid that i cant even see things right. so everything, is my fault. not all of yours. all mine alright?
when the tears came, i told myself to be strong, to not to cry, because it's a waste of my tears to cry over those two people.
i just need to keep telling myself, that i can do it, i'm strong, i wont cry, and i must have the will.
& thankyou yeuyann ; besties frm diff class forever ♥
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