OP is finally over. I&R submitted, NO MORE PW FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. this is such a joy. except that the fact the Q&A during OP absolutely stunned me that i stunned for a long time asked the examiner to repeat her question then i quickly thought of crap answers to crap, otherwise it was okay! though kind of disappointed that even after preparing questions it all went down the drain :( but nevertheless, it's over! grateful to ms lee for her help :) i enunciate all my words properly! i think. whooo. okay yay it's over at least, time to relax for a few days be4 school starts again :(
and i went swimming today :D
havent swam in a long time, and i really enjoyed being in the water. though my facee became very red :X
anyway back to reality.
but still, i have to study. kills so much joy.
persevere.
plus actually, i've learnt that sometimes, we can never expect too much of things. the greater you expect, the greater the disappointment and the pain. at least i've learnt to be strong. ah hell, jc really kills ppl like me. this year has so many ups and downs. maybe i'm not suited to be in jc afterall, i really dont consider myself as smart. but i'm not stupid either. maybe just average. people tell me that i'm hardworking but apparently results doesnt show, what's the use.
maybe i just need more confidence in myself for everything. but i just cant gather the confidence. i feel damn pessimistic now. argh. i think i've nvr cried so much in a year before. if i cant make it again, i seriously will have no idea what the fuck will i want to do in life.
i really could use a hug right now.
hah, to look at the bright side i'm going out tmr again to destress. looking forward to that, really hope i can release all the negative feelings out. :) tmr~
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