life is hell. being at home is hell.
i just merely told my parents that my results sucks.
then the first thing they say is, see la, whole day use com. whole day blog. of course i feel indignant and attempt to defend myself, and they start saying all those hell crap. and you know what my mum even said?
she said, " i bet you cant even get into poly good courses. "

that's a insult straight in my face that i'm going to do bullshit for O levels, and i'm downright stupid.

ya fuck, i mugged my bloody guts out and you dont even see me mugging cause you're not even at home and you claim that i dont study.

oh whatever, just dont scream at me tmr when you see my l1r5. ==.

next thing, alex is damn mean.
he see my finger, i still played, and of course played like bulllshit la. THEN HE SCOLD ME LEH WTF. i wanted to scream fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck cuz it's seriously damn freaking pain, but i was biting my lips to refrain from shouting all that vulgarities out. and i played ALL my songs, and until the duet first page, which requires excessive jumping, my cher said forget it, the remaining time next lesson then make up. then i immediately went to my bedroom and start crying zzzz which i cant help it. freaking pain lah.

hell, i feel like chopping off my finger to spare me the pain.

bad mood.